Coffee Date with Erin

Coffee Date with Erin

My girl Gina over at the Fitnessista does a coffee date blog post once in a while and I’m stealing her idea because that’s exactly what I’d love to do with all of you this week. I’d tell you …

1) I turned my wardrobe inside out. I’m one of those who’s like, “I have 700 items ‘just in case of ____’” and I can pretty much guarantee I won’t be meeting the pope, getting pregnant, or attending a country-themed party any time soon. So I’m rolling with this capsule wardrobe idea instead. A simplified definition is that you basically become totally ruthless with getting rid of the stuff you never wear and only keep what you actually like and looks good. Oh, and you’re supposed to keep it to under 40 items total, not counting Pjs, workout clothes and accessories. Done and done.  The pile in the picture is a fraction of what I gave away or sold. CRAZY!

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2) I actually turned down a book deal that was OK but really not what I was looking for. My gut feeling was that it wasn’t right, so as painful as it was to say no, I did. I cried for an entire day because it’s something I’ve always wanted and to have it be so close but still not be “it” was a tough pill to swallow. I had to teach right after I said no, and people probably thought I was insane because my eyes were puffy and red from being a giant baby. I’m feeling all good about it now and am charging forward in a different way. Can’t wait to tell you about how 🙂

3) Made this BOMB tomato soup which I expected to just be mehh and ended up being OH YEAH! Recipe coming soon.

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Between filming for the yoga challenge and working on other projects, I’ve been doing TONS of writing lately… well, I’ve been trying to do tons of writing lately but my creative brain is a little slow and that makes for some frustrating and unfulfilling afternoons sometimes, haha.

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My creative “process” may need some tweaking. Goes a little something like this:

– Sit down in front of blank document with coffee and rock back and forth in my swivel chair like a lunatic until my brain has a thought worth writing down.

– I deserve a reward! Get up and rummage in the refrigerator for some chocolate.

– Eat whatever I find.

– Back to blank document to get a couple sentences down. Nothing comes.

– Stand up again and grumble about sucking at everything I do and lament my bleak future. WAHHHHH! EVERYBODY HATES MEEEEE!

– Visit yoga mat and do 15 bad handstands.

– Back to desk and get a couple more sentences out before starting something totally new in a different document.

– Check Facebook.

– Do 15 more handstands PLUS a downdog.

– That really wore me out and I think it’s juice and cracker time. Or time for more chocolate. I’m so confused.

– Remember I need to vacuum, so I actually do that. Shit. Laundry’s done? I don’t even remember starting laundry. Must fold… actually no– must dump all clean clothes on to bed and let my tomorrow self worry about folding. Life = hacked.

– Ok, back to desk to wriiii– change of mind: go visit my Frenchman in his office and sing him a song I made up.

– That was fun. Now SERIOUSLY time to work.

– Shit! Time to go teach. Ok, I’ll finish this tomorrow.

– But hey at least I blogged today, AMIRITE?!

What’s new in your lives? Anything awesome? Ever had a disappointment that you practically went in to mourning over? Share away 🙂

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  1. Your creative process is eerily similar to mine! Although I should consider incorporating impromptu singing at the husband’s office. 🙂 I actually just wrote a few friends about a disappointment I had this week. I received a job rejection email from a position I was really excited about. It wasn’t the rejection that sucked (although that DOES suck), it was the actual email. The person who sent it wrote a really nasty rejection email and it just totally floored me for like a day and a half. And I cried. Like a lot. And also the wine bottle tipped itself into my glass a few times. But it’s ok. It’s for the best and I am now working on Plan B (ok…who am I kidding…Plan G). 🙂

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    • Ughhh, yes I’ve been there too. One time I got a rejection letter for a position I applied to from the person who got the position I was applying for! lol! Awkwarrrrd….

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      • ZOMG. Classic. (Said in my best Zach Galifianakis voice, of course). The good news is, though, that these things happen for a reason, and it’s probably for the best they didn’t pan out.

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  2. This is pretty much what I did when I was writing my degree dissertation, except I was doing full wheel and head stands, and visiting my husband. I understand what you are going through………….it will all work out, it always does.

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  3. Don’t be too hard on yourself Erin, anyone who ever tried to write anything knows that it can be slow and painful process full of procrastinating, snacking, watching Ellen DeGeneres videos (just for a short break) or doing quick yoga session etc… Glad to hear that you feel better now and be proud of yourself for not doing something that does not feel right… well back to studying now I suppose….eh…

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    • haha, so true! my distractions of choice DO include ellen videos and also conan obrien 😉

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  4. About a week ago, I got a text from my college choir directors. They asked me if I had time available to enroll in Concert Choir. This is the highest group at our school, and is a group that essentially the best singers on campus sing in, include people who will go on to be professional opera singers and such. The only problem was that I’m starting my sophomore year and have four semesters of foreign language to take. My 16 hour schedule this semester meant I only had room for one Spanish 1 class scheduling option, and that was during the time this choir was. I sat there for 15 minutes thinking about how much my advisor would hate me if I dropped it, knowing this may be my one chance to sing in this choir as I’m not that great a singer compared to some of these new cats coming in from high school and such. This was, very possibly, my only opportunity to sing with this group that I may ever get.

    In the end though, I knew the right thing would be to say no. I hated it, still do even! Singing in Concert Choir means you’re on top of the choral world here at K-State. But I’m an English major, and I’ve got to graduate. So, after 15-20 minutes of sitting where I was and pondering, I texted them back saying I couldn’t enroll in the group with my current schedule.

    Sucks, because I’ve been working since a sophomore in high school on my music, this would have been a crazy, wonderful thing, like getting your own book published. But in the end, I suppose it wasn’t meant to be. But like me, I’m sure destiny will give you another opportunity, one you, and I, will be each respectively taking.

    Damn it if it didn’t hurt though…no matter how right. So I empathize with ya. Good for you staying true to yourself! 🙂

    Shelton 🙂

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    • Good for you, Shelton! So important to go with your gut 🙂

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  5. Picturing you through this process – which was very easy to do – brought a big ole smile to my face. Thanks for sharing! A big disappointment for me is that I’ve always fancied myself a writer, but I can’t seem to make money doing it. But it can’t bring me down today because it’s Friday!

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  6. You’re the greatest Erin! Always so honest and heartfelt. That’s why we all love you and stand behind you and your decisions all the way!! Love from Newfoundland, Canada 🙂

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  7. Oh Erin, I know what you mean about disappointment.
    I just graduated nursing and had a job interview today.. I was so pumped to go hear about this new job and possibly get started ASAP before I write my GIANT licensing exam in 2 weeks. Turns out the job I wanted pays almost as much as my non-nursing job and yet has 1000X more responsibility.
    I’ve been in school for 4 years and love working with people but.. I also know now that nurses at that agency are severely underpaid.
    I came home did some serious yoga, some meditation, drank a larger than head iced coffee, finally sat down and smiled reading your blog.
    Thanks for brightening my day, you’re blog was seriously adorable and matches what I do on many days of sheer and utter “what do I do? I’ll do this.. no I’ll do this.. Ugh I need a cookie”.

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  8. day=made. i needed that smile. sorry for your mini heartbreak, but there are going to be bigger, better and fabulous things in the future to make your heart happy

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    • thank you so much, mj! 🙂 <3

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  9. hahaha loved the last part, if that isn’t a completely accurate account of a #badyogi procrastinating idk what is. I knew I liked you for a reason

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  10. Yes, oh yes. Part of my brand of perfectionism is finding reasons to avoid bumping up against proof that I am inadequate/human. It helps to read this funny account of you being honest about your own vulnerabilities.

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  11. Recently-ish, I nice wise man I know told me, “Things always work out for the better. If it hasn’t worked out for the better, you’re not done yet.” Sometimes that means taking a different course than we originally wanted, only to find the new direction was so much better than we ever could have dreamed. I thought I would be moving to Louisville, Kentucky, but every time we went to make an offer on a house it was already taken. Turns out we were meant to move to Louisiana and for the first time in my travel filled life, I have found a house that feels like a permanent HOME.

    I recently had 2 major disappointments I grieved over: my sister getting divorced after only being married for a month (not her husband’s fault), and my doctor threatening me with diabetes if I don’t watch my sugar intake (I love sugary foods).

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    • so true! it can be tough to let go of the things we can’t control, but it’s certainly worth it.

      thank you for sharing!

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  12. Well,today was my first day of school. First, we had a real fire. Everyone is okay though! Second, I walked into the wrong classroom SEVERAL times, Third, I am terrified of my honors English class, fifth, I wish I had a darn car and license (not going to put you through the drama of the whole bus situation) and last but not least, I burnt the bottoms of my feet on the tar while walking home.

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  13. Your creative process sounds kinda like mine at days. Minus the handstands though. 😉

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  14. Oh absolutely – in the next two weeks or so I need to complete a giant essay about “The Changing Global Economy” (AHHHFHNKJDNIUFH), and you know what, my room has never been cleaner, laundry never been more up to date and book shelf never been more organized in my entire life!! But crunch time is coming…. and I think I still need to do some dishes and some down-dogs, UKNOWRITE, sooooooooooo maybe later…. PS: thanks for the yoga 🙂

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  15. Oh this is so me! Minus the handstands. Living in New York City and having ADHD not a good combination for me. So I just moved to San Diego to change life for the better. Yoga on the beach woohoo. Love your yoga videos and sense of humor Erin, keep up the good work. And the book will happen when the time is right!

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  16. Yes!!! Last year my husband and I decided we had to get our canadian license. We have had our Portuguese driving license like forever and never had an accident! For some reason in Canada, that doesn’t matter, if you’re portuguese you have to do the written exam plus the road exam (but of you’re from Germeny you don’t have to, or UK, and they drive on the other side of the car, so ….anyway..)
    So we went and for some stupid reason that I didn’t accelerated enough when going in the highway, I didn’t pass! I was so pissed! And then my hubby goes and don’t stop at a red light and he passes! I was like WHAT???????!!!!! I was on my 9th month pregnancy at the time and my hormones just went to the moon and back! Very bad experience!!! Don’t ever atempt to do that at home! :/

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  17. They say we like people who remind us of ourselves. We are all a bit vain. Even those who claim not to be. I say this, because a lot of what I like about you is your personality is like mine. Minus the headstands (which I haven’t done since I was 10), your writing process is identical to mine.
    I hope you don’t mind if I snag the Coffee Talk idea for my blog —whenever I get around to writing it.

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  18. haha, funny girl 🙂 thanks for the reminder what a labour of love the creative process is! I often wonder how much I would get done without my two little guys running around (not that I would ever trade em for the extra time clearly!!) but posts like this help me remember there are ALWAYS distractions. Hey, at least our heart and head are in the right place. oh and btw, I may also have to steal the coffee date blog post idea 😉 Thanks Gina and Erin!

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  19. I can relate to this! This is pretty much how most of my days go! 🙂

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  20. I feel like you’re sorta my twin…

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